inside update

oscar is still doing what he does best, a.k.a. lying around and being cuddly



leg ruffles!



underbellies.



this IV stuff is way less scary now.



it's become easier and easier and takes only a few minutes. she has stopped wiggling the needle out, and mostly just sits still. she still makes unhappy chattering/long meowing noises at us and runs away when it's over but she isn't as angry or completely freaked out at all. i'm so glad it's becoming "normal" for us because i really hated how traumatic it was for all of us. my heart would pound and my hands would shake and then i would watch her for an hour to make sure she was ok. it really sucked. p.s. i will be looking for a volunteer to do it with me on saturday august 6th. all you would have to do is open the line and then close the line. i'll do the hard stuff, i just need two hands to hold her. you would be my hero.

tiny cat, you are my heart.



ok, onwards. got some new kicks. i borrowed a pair of these for that 5K hike on our last camping weekend and they were so comfortable i had to get a pair. slippers you can hike in. not bad.



and a new shirt! just in time for laundry day. please note missing futon mattress. it is in the livingroom, under the AC so that we can actually sleep.



oh, my ratty jean shorts. i think this is year 7 with these babies. that is actual wear, not fake wear. you can tell. one day i'll be walking down the street and they will just turn to dust and fall off.

tote.



told you i found my beach glass collection.



aggressive flowers. FREEDOM.



i don't know how this happened. needed a place for the bananas. i got the vase at the chief salvage garage sale. good find. can't wait to get some flowers in it.



nice half-formed fresh bruise from running into a spin bike.



i was running late, rushing, and my eyes hadn't adjusted from the outside world (didn't have my "spin eyes" yet) and i slammed right into the handle. it went right between two muscles, gave me a really nice charley horse and i was going so fast that my whole body bent around the impact. it was awesome, especially since it was right at the front of the class. then i said "well THAT's a bike" to make things less awkward (more awkward).

this concludes today's episode of cat-lady buys stuff and runs into things.

the tomatoes are ripening. i can't wait. i love how each tomato in the bunch ripens one at a time so they're each a different colour. a tomato rainbow. slight problem though, note the one missing.



A HA! evidence of a theiving bandit. a half nibbled (with tiny teeth) and discarded snack. i dread the day that the cats are lounging on the deck and mr. squirrel comes back to munch.



whelp i finally detangled the morning glories from the peppers and other plants on the shelf but instead of ripping them out i have slung them over the permanently-open screen door to futher my continuing bid for outdoor privacy. i'm starting to wonder if the family across the street refuses to say hi because they have had to witness me in my bikini on the deck/birthday suit when walking into the front room not knowing the blinds were up so many times. WHAT? it's the summer. stop being a looky-loo if you don't like it. don't be jealous of our commune, join us.



hopefully they will grow like crazy, as witnessed in the other ones:



how very ferngully.

also switched up this box. the other plants were getting too big, with too little colour.



so many food times on the deck. one of many.



veggie skewers. roasted vegetables and purple potatoes. i bought some veggie skewers once that were SO good and i'm on a mission to figure out which ones they were because of course i didn't check.



and that concludes my gardening update of the week. stay tuned for a cat update. GOD I NEED TO GET A LIFE. or at least start taking pictures of my actual life. ok. new goal: take pictures of actual life.

so many things

my photo taking has really slowed down. i don't know. i've had a lot on my mind and i don't think to pull out my camera. trying to live in the moment. this has been such a sad weekend in the news, it's hard to reconcile it all but being thankful for everything that i have is a step in the right direction. i am trying to remind myself of how lucky i am every time i start to complain about something. i am VERY LUCKY to be able to get up at 4am from a good rest in a safe bed, find enough to eat and go to a job where i am not in danger. we have it so fucking easy here, i am sometimes ashamed that i haven't done more good with my life. i have coasted and just lived the life i was given but i know that there is so much more potential than i have made use of. wasteful.

the tragic and early death of one person. addiction is a terrible, terrible thing. she had "the darkness". once, at a party, i was talking to someone and they were describing something about themselves. i said, "oh, you have the darkness". they looked shocked but i knew they understood what i meant. takes one to know one. throw some fame, unlimited money, and bloodsuckers on top of it and it is hardly surprising. very, very sad and a great loss. the other tragedies are greater in scale and both just mind boggling. famine of the heart and famine of the belly. i feel so helpless. and so it goes. that's enough of that.

hi stella. she has been following me around like crazy. she knows.



little duck.



life, somehow, goes on. hi sunshine. i love you. i am already trying to hoard you for the winter.



so this is last thursday. dinner with the laydeez at frank, then a saunter around the area.



hi beauties. we were stopped in front of whippersnapper admiring the window.



saturday. mom brought some goldfish to the park. and by mom i mean pam.



saturday morning we went to the garage sale for the chief salvage co. on dundas. you should go there and pick out yourself a knick knack. or a super functional paper holder:



west toronto rail path take II. there is a plant that i'm pretty sure is hogweed all over that thing. looks like queen anne's lace, but grows super tall. it's not as thick in the stem as the hogweed i've seen elsewhere but it sure has all the other markers. i think these might be the skeletons of it. not sure. that shit will burn your skin off. no me gusta.





begonias are far less dangerous. this guy is pretty happy lately. i hope he stays that way. i don't like the looks of that droopy leaf. it didn't perk up after watering so i'm going to dry it out a bit, hoping it doesn't get root rot like the last plant i had in that pot did. as always, first world problems.



house things









perfection.

sunday night we ventured out for sushi. i wore a top i haven't had the chance to wear yet. i could live in this outfit.





beautiful day, but we elected to sit inside, in the very pleasant AC.



yesterday after work i spent some time makin some things.



this picture has sparked interest in learning how to do this, so i am going to be doing a craft night/park afternoon. if you're interested let me know! you'd have to buy a loom (you could probably make one, just search it: voila), fancy thread, beading needles and beads but i can point you in the right direction for that stuff. it's actually really easy.

get ready to barf from cuteness. she totally nose bonked me, which is out of the ordinary. she's usually shy of faces. she's been extra cuddly lately. also extra skinny, which is very worrisome. i'm hoping it's the heat, i know i barely have an appetite, i can't imagine having a fur coat in it.



we've been sleeping in the livingroom, with our new friend the air conditioner.



sqweeeeheeheehee



haha so intense.



HI.

party like it's 1995

on saturday night i went to a small elementry school reunion. that's right, elementary school. a lot of us ended up at the same junior high as well.

this is flora with her dog buena. buena is from costa rica, and adopted flora while she was doing her masters there. to repay her for her loyal love, flo snuck her onto a plane back to canada to avoid a life of starvation in the jungle (literally). how, you may ask? well, let me tell you.



not in a grand piano, as i had first imagined, rather through knowing the right people and generally being the nicest person in the world. be nice to people, it will pay you back in the end when you don't have to abandon your new best friend. um, look at those ears. she is my favourite dog (after my family dog).



it's amazing to see people you've known for over 15 years become "actual people" with real jobs and responsibilities. lawyers and famous actors and human rights advisors for the government and such. way to go guys. also, you match. good job.



after drinks and burgers, we headed to the school yard to play handball. i did not play, because in the past 15 years my affinity for high heels has grown, and to be honest i was always more of a redass girl than a ledgers girl. besides, most of my time spent there was behind the portable. ANYWAYS.



buena loves handball because she gets to constantly chase a tennis ball.



so the second floor hallway pictured below was probably the creepiest part of the school. the ceilings were sreally high (the red part is a door)-note the frosted window above the door. i don't know why but it always creeped me out. there is a vestibule in that part of the school that i remember changing for ballet in and i can recall getting the willies. it's a very old school.



the sarah devereaux award. i didn't know her but she died in a boating accident. you can see my friends nick battaglia and katie erb listed as recipients at the top right.



this is the lunchroom. it seemed way bigger back then. those soldiers were the subject of several nightmares.



i wonder why.



the outdoor bathrooms. this was a good sitting spot because the teachers couldn't really see you.



HILLCREST FUNFEST! with zombie eyes.



we did a group shot in front of this sign but it was really dark.

apparently i'm "really pretty and grew up really nice". that's good to know. win! can't wait to see these guys again.